i'm really very happy with my life now haha. feels like a really good mix of fun and learning. okay probably too much fun cuz i havent touched my books for a couple of days now, nor done anything remotely med related the moment i step out of hospital. but its just csfc, its time to just eeeaaassee into things heh.

speaking of happy i think theres nothing nicer than watching someone you care for smile and say that they are happy. i do that occasionally, announce to whoever's listening that the world is perfect right at that instant. (tends to happen when i take my first bite of azabu sabo ice cream haha) and i want to hear the person i like do just that. even better if i'm the reason for that happiness. hurhur i'm such a sappy idiot.

another random issue: i'm really beginning to think that things happen when you least expect it. treasures really do fall from the sky and land in ur lap. but likewise anvils also fall and land on your head haha. so there's no point waiting and wishing and expecting because, there is just no point. so hard as it may be to just sit back and do nothing, it's probably the best thing to do.

yet another related random issue: sometimes we want someone there for us, and this want is so intense we're willing to compromise on certain things, be it our pride or our personal standards. but i read this in the newspaper, something ashley alexandra dupre (yes, the callgirl linked to eliot spitzer) said. "if you are in a relationship, and it is doing absolutely nothing for you, and just makes you feel bad about yourself or cause unnecessary drama... why would you want that? you need to surround yourself with the people that make you feel good, and that will help you get to that next step in your life."
i think thats so incredibly true, and it applies to any sort of relationship with people, even friendship. we all need people who make us feel like we are worth something. anything less and we become psychologically damaged, even if we dont realise it. so hang in there, hold on for the people that will do that for you.

and as a side note, i will be suitably touched by someone who sings "everything" by michael buble to me, and mean it.

i'm really very happy with my life now haha. feels like a really good mix of fun and learning. okay probably too much fun cuz i havent touched my books for a couple of days now, nor done anything remotely med related the moment i step out of hospital. but its just csfc, its time to just eeeaaassee into things heh.

speaking of happy i think theres nothing nicer than watching someone you care for smile and say that they are happy. i do that occasionally, announce to whoever's listening that the world is perfect right at that instant. (tends to happen when i take my first bite of azabu sabo ice cream haha) and i want to hear the person i like do just that. even better if i'm the reason for that happiness. hurhur i'm such a sappy idiot.

another random issue: i'm really beginning to think that things happen when you least expect it. treasures really do fall from the sky and land in ur lap. but likewise anvils also fall and land on your head haha. so there's no point waiting and wishing and expecting because, there is just no point. so hard as it may be to just sit back and do nothing, it's probably the best thing to do.

yet another related random issue: sometimes we want someone there for us, and this want is so intense we're willing to compromise on certain things, be it our pride or our personal standards. but i read this in the newspaper, something ashley alexandra dupre (yes, the callgirl linked to eliot spitzer) said. "if you are in a relationship, and it is doing absolutely nothing for you, and just makes you feel bad about yourself or cause unnecessary drama... why would you want that? you need to surround yourself with the people that make you feel good, and that will help you get to that next step in your life."
i think thats so incredibly true, and it applies to any sort of relationship with people, even friendship. we all need people who make us feel like we are worth something. anything less and we become psychologically damaged, even if we dont realise it. so hang in there, hold on for the people that will do that for you.

and as a side note, i will be suitably touched by someone who sings "everything" by michael buble to me, and mean it.