WHAT IF LOVE IS ONLY A FEELING.

'cause you came at a time
when the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
was the be-all and end-all.
love is only a feeling
drifting away
when i'm in your arms i start believing
it's here to stay
but love is only a feeling
anyway.


what if, despite all the grandeurs of love, how people celebrate it the world over, the emphasis placed on it, love is just another feeling. like happiness, sadness, elation, boredom. a feeling that you get when you see a person, a feeling that can't last forever, because thats what feelings are. they come and go.

and science supports this view, because the attraction and light-headedness that constitutes the feeling of love all boils down to a chemical reaction in the brain. or because pheramones are supposed to determine attraction to one another, and these unconscious smells we emit are based on genetics. is love then just a pairing determined since the day you were conceived? how terribly unromantic.

then one would go on to argue that love isnt just attraction, but the companionship factor as well. if you take the attraction out, all thats left is a friend so whats the difference?

all this cynicism about love isnt helping. maybe i just wasnt cut out for it, not the way you'd like. i dont know what to think, i dont know what to feel. i'm sorry but this is draining me.

may 2008 be a year of less depressing episodes. less futile thinking, less regrets, less fear of the unknown.

more love, more new people, more new experiences. more doing what i should, more knowing what to do, more faith.

forgiveness.

i want to walk away from 2007 remembering all the good parts, and learning from the bad ones.

who am i to even ask.





but already, this year's off to a bad start.

what am i to do?

WHAT IF LOVE IS ONLY A FEELING.

'cause you came at a time
when the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
was the be-all and end-all.
love is only a feeling
drifting away
when i'm in your arms i start believing
it's here to stay
but love is only a feeling
anyway.


what if, despite all the grandeurs of love, how people celebrate it the world over, the emphasis placed on it, love is just another feeling. like happiness, sadness, elation, boredom. a feeling that you get when you see a person, a feeling that can't last forever, because thats what feelings are. they come and go.

and science supports this view, because the attraction and light-headedness that constitutes the feeling of love all boils down to a chemical reaction in the brain. or because pheramones are supposed to determine attraction to one another, and these unconscious smells we emit are based on genetics. is love then just a pairing determined since the day you were conceived? how terribly unromantic.

then one would go on to argue that love isnt just attraction, but the companionship factor as well. if you take the attraction out, all thats left is a friend so whats the difference?

all this cynicism about love isnt helping. maybe i just wasnt cut out for it, not the way you'd like. i dont know what to think, i dont know what to feel. i'm sorry but this is draining me.