i hate guessing and speculating and not knowing for sure.

you ponder, and wonder, and your mind oscillates between the possibilities. you calculate risks and weigh pros and cons, and still you are left with no real answer. even if one possibility seems more likely than the other, there's always that what if. that one in a million. and so, you let it consume your mind.

and hoping. hoping is worse. because there's that element of wanting a particular outcome. if what you hope for seems totally impossible, you will still harbour that little bit of hope. you know, just in case. and the worst? it's when what you hope for seems like a near certainty, then bam the whole thing suddenly flips over and whacks you square on the back of your head.
that has got to hurt.

but pandora's box, remember. for where would the world be without that bit of hope?


(i actually did some research on wikipedia in case i remembered the story wrongly. the interpretations of hope being trapped in the box are rather interesting. i chose the optimistic version, which is apparantly also the one most commonly used. fascinating.)

i hate guessing and speculating and not knowing for sure.

you ponder, and wonder, and your mind oscillates between the possibilities. you calculate risks and weigh pros and cons, and still you are left with no real answer. even if one possibility seems more likely than the other, there's always that what if. that one in a million. and so, you let it consume your mind.

and hoping. hoping is worse. because there's that element of wanting a particular outcome. if what you hope for seems totally impossible, you will still harbour that little bit of hope. you know, just in case. and the worst? it's when what you hope for seems like a near certainty, then bam the whole thing suddenly flips over and whacks you square on the back of your head.
that has got to hurt.

but pandora's box, remember. for where would the world be without that bit of hope?


(i actually did some research on wikipedia in case i remembered the story wrongly. the interpretations of hope being trapped in the box are rather interesting. i chose the optimistic version, which is apparantly also the one most commonly used. fascinating.)