i'm tireddd. tired tired TIREDDD.

haha in a better mood though. exercise always puts me in a a better mood. tdy was 3 hours of exhausting touch rugby under the sun. looked deceivingly cloudy in the morning but my red face now is testament to the heat haha.

nus vs src coyotes: 13 - 0 :D
pukekos mens vs ssv6: (some double digit no) - 2
pukekos mixed vs bedok kings: (another double digit no) - 1

YAY! yeah i played for the mens team too cuz they didnt have enough guys. got zammed by some guy's knee in the thigh though. contusion. RIGHT after some huge ang moh stepped on my foot. i just limped off the field la haha. and running and stepping in the muddy field is no joke. can feel resistance everytime you life your foot to run. so now my knees feel abit wobbly and my thigh hurts and i have a headache and i am sunburnt, BUT i am satisfied. so all's well heh.

dinner afterwards at sakae sushi with some wantoks. nice talking to them actually. or rather listening to them talk because firstly i don't talk much in big groups and secondly i was too tired to talk and thirdly my mouth was usually full hahaha. no clubbing at st james tonight because i am TOO TIRED. and i am cheapskate i only go when its free entry :)

yesterday was quite good too. work then baking again and blading to tammy's house. planned the itinerary of barcelona yay! then mj at jabriels house where i was extremely unlucky and stupid and lost all the money i made the other time haha. but at least i got to eat beef kway teow at geylang for the first time! good stuff i wanna go again heh.

random things:
i just got my new specs tdy!! haha they're grey not green as i told some of you before. haha my dad said i look very studious. i already looked studious before lor HAHA.
and this is one of the rare times i will put up a narcissistic pic on my blog like that. must show you my specs right haha. but sadly i do not have a specs face like a certain loo jing min haha.
super sian my degree is like 225 right and 25 left eye. my right eye degree nearly doubled since i entered med sch la. that place is bad for me i tell you. oh and sorry i look so fierce here hahah.

anw maybe tmr i shall put up some pics of the places i'll be visiting in barcelona! i'm excited abt the shopping there heh. although i probably wont have money to spend. :(

oh yeah escapes reading this next monday after everyones exams over we go forture and eat okay! then mj sleepover at someones house haha. maybe mine if i can get a table and set. addy's idea haha.

dear tammy just gave me smth else random to blog abt hahaha.

princess* says:
haha i liked it.
princess* says:
shioks
princess* says:
showed that he cares HAHA
kim. says:
ooohhh
kim. says:
much love ah
kim. says:
hahaha
princess* says:
haha we're lovebirds!

wonders who shes talking abt hahahahaha.
mambo last night was good fun. maybe cuz they moved rnb to velvet. which is so much bigger and less claustrophobic.

but the sparkles of last night have begun to drift down and settle on the floor,
mingling with the dusty remnants of the feelings i felt yesterday.

long discussions regarding my feelings dont help very much. they leave me right where i started, with no conclusion, no resolution. but they are appreciated, because i know that people care enough to offer opinions. and that other people do actually feel the way i do too.

i have a knack for ignoring my feelings, preferring to bury my head in a book and let the emotion pass. exactly the way i like to procrastinate in all the things i do. maybe not a very wise idea but it helps me settle down. not act upon a feeling which may go away in awhile. why stir up trouble in a nicely simmering cauldron?

i am scared. scared of the future, scared of people around me, scared of my power i hold, scared of my power i lack. and i loathe to admit this. despite who i have around me to help, i still feel very much alone and helpless sometimes.

i should learn to not let little things in life affect me. the ups and downs and nuances of life. situations and people flit in and out of each of our worlds, and they should not determine our state of happiness. so why i do still feel this way despite knowing how i SHOULD feel.

maybe thats only human. maybe these episodes of uncertainty are to reinforce belief in the one thing that IS certain. i must learn to hold tight to that which is constant. please be my anchor.

anw this post is not because i am feeling sad. well sort of but not the kind of sadness that makes you want to bawl and sob, but rather the quiet kind of heaviness that weighs you down and seeps into every corner of your body. more thoughtful and pensive than sad i guess.

thats the strange thing about feelings too. they cant always be described in words. not the way that notes every little detail of the feeling, or the context, or the magnitude of it. and they dont come seperately, but in a potent cocktail. and the more you think about it the more the feeling changes. insight breeds a plethora of other related feelings.

emo blog entries like this mean everything yet nothing.
they tell of thoughts and feelings, yet the inadequacy of words to fully express things, and the fact that the mind moves quicker than the fingers can capture means that i am no closer to telling you the way i feel than i was before. maybe some things really just cannot be explained.

it's like song lyrics that dont seem to mean anything. i leave this open to interpretation.

sophia, sophia, i'm burning, i'm burning
it's a fire it's a fire i cannot put out.
i knew this feeling would set in. i tried and i tried to make it different from last time but it seems like it'll run me over anyway. the worst part is that i cant do anything about it, or i wont.

i want something. someone.

only when no one is watching
can we really fall apart.
this post is dedicated to the dearest john tan, despite all the shocking things shes said and done , her secret keeping and revelations haha.

the retarded birthday girl!the surprise


the nutella cupcakes i made and decorated. with the strawberry cheesecake cach's MOM made and her FAVOURITE baileys at the side hahaha.
everyone enjoying my cupcakes!! i got rave reviews haha. they look like they can be in an ad right.
my nutella cupcake ad! :D
ES.CA.PES!!!
stump looking possessed hahahaha.
mong is damn greedy. look at her greedy face.
love(r)s. haha.
by the request of mich who thinks this pic is hilarous.
/23/ says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
/23/ says:
its damn funny
/23/ says:
u can almost see the gleam in her eyes
lydia and i!
addy is congratulating mich for turning 20. what a feat.
presenting her with... 2 cigarettes haha. one for each decade.
BAILEYS TIME!! 4 caps only cuz she insists she will puke otherwise. pfft.
1 cap only and shes red hahahah.
2 down 2 to go.
contemplating her third cap.
wants to die alr haha.
addy being the good buddy and downing the last cap for her.
strange friends i have haha.

addy playing dead so she can look up mich's shorts hahaha.
nice effect shots.


BAILEYS makes an appearance again.
see the light coming from the bottle. it must be good!
NOTTT. hahaha.
addy completing her dare.

haha okay that about sums up the night. oh and mahjong session at addy's house after that! poor mich couldnt come along cuz of exams. there there i know what that feels like!

at first i thought i was losing but then after that i made some! but then thats like petrol money for sending all the rest back la haha. and so much for bad mj luck. okay i better not jinx it now heh. MORE mj people! haha.
housewife-ish day tdy haha. i grocery shopped, i baked, i sewed and i ran. housewives run too okay. to look good for their husband. hahaha wth. anw it didn't feel like a saturday. i think holidays makes all days the same. all days are good days! haha.

went grocery shopping with daddy. told him last night that we'd go at 10. and he said that meant we'd go at 11 because i always wake up late. in the end i woke up at 1 haha. he knows me well indeed.

had to walk all the way to the lousy ntuc so far away. but i had a nice breakfast of kolo mee on the way back! haha my corner coffeeshop has pretty good food both morning and night. got home with ingredients for baking!!

all the stuff i need for the perfect cupcakes heh.step 1: batter and eggs that look like puke haha.
step 2: scoop batter into cupcake tins
step 3: put lavish amounts of nutella on top. eat a little in the process hahaha.
step 4: SWIRL!! its not as easy as it looks heh.

step 5: bake for 20 mins. and get this!

step 6: EAT! :D

after wolfing down a couple, i decided to make a pouch for myself haha. so domesticated and tame hahaha.
paint and sponges!
after sponging the cloth with animal prints.the completed product!
quite nice right haha. dunno what i'm gonna use it for though.

and tdy i finally went to zouk.

by that i mean i ran to zouk and back haha.
feels good to have a long run after not running at all for so long. my calves ache though.
BUT the impt thing is that i'm happy now. running makes you nicely high and full of optimism.

tmr shall be a good day too yay. :)
it's funny how some things can completely ruin your mood. and just a little while later something can make the world seem okay again.
like this for example:
a mood ruiner.
haha i hope i dont get in trouble for using this logo thing but i'm sure its common knowledge that no one appreciates a parking slip. or getting bullied by a sarcastic police officer at the AIRPORT. which is what happened to me just now bleahh.

on the other hand, these make the world a brighter place again haha.
say hello to NUTELLA CUPCAKES! actually it should be say byebye because they will be so nice that they will be gobbled up in no time haha. i will attempt to make them tmr after i buy the ingredients. and i'll make them look prettier too! haha.

this from my day out at sentosa. weather was nicer than this photo shows though. my tanlines are damn obvious now.
the friend i havent really talked to for some time. come back stumpieee. from you know whos arms. i miss you hahahha.
this is a damn random pic of suntanning bottles. cute right. cuz the ice in them wouldnt melt to give sufficient water haha.

dinner and dessert at menottis yum yum. though the place was a little too noisy it was still gooood. parked at suntec city instead of raffles city though because i couldnt find my way there haha. firstly because i'd never driven there before, secondly because the jam was so crazy i couldnt change lanes, and thirdly because i dont have enough practice driving.
these arent excuses okay. they're legitimate reasons haha.
when i found myself heading past lau par sat i decided to try the ecp and suntec route instead. but then i was scared i'd get lost in the maze of CBD again that i decided to just park at suntec and WALK the long way to raffles city. so much for having the car heh.

so grocery shopping and baking and HOPEFULLY a run tmr. i like this life. :D
AHHH no mambo this week.
all because i didnt eat dinner and still played the stupid drinking game.
1-5 for the number of shots
6 for types
7 for toilet card
8 for action card
9 for rhyming (with pple choosing words like streptococci HAHA. i'm amazed they could think of smth that rhymes with that.)
picture cards are nothing.
this is a bad bad evil game haha.

and i have concluded that nausea is the worst feeling ever. worse than pain by FAR.
haha anw i wanna say that i will NEVER drink until i puke again. i promise by this blog. if i puke cuz of alcohol ever again, i will..

POST PICTURES OF THE TIME I HAD SHORT HAIR AND WORE A HAIRBAND TO PUSH MY FRINGE ALL UP.

then you can all laugh at me. hahahaha okay that should be sufficient to stop me. friends you can help me with this! hahaha.

but lunch was good we were all super hungry la. trng was alright. dinner with my teammates was damn fun. they're such amusing pple haha.

i should sleep now anw there's sentosa tmr!! and river island! yay yay yay. hols are gonna be super fun if things carry on this way heh. which i doubt so i shall ENJOY myself now. and post smth i've wanted to for some time when i'm more bored.

oh and thanks yuhui for driving me arnd! haha nutella cupcakes for you soon! and pple who are nice to me hahaha. :D
MOMMY ITS OVERRRR!!
(haha in case you dont know where thats from, they play it every time the just for laugh program ends. damn cute haha.)
yay i guess you can tell i'm damn happy now.
i'm incredibly sleepy but the freedom feels too good to waste on sleeping! so i'm trying to revamp a top. lots to sew haha.

ANW lunch was at THE PUMP ROOM.
yeah the one that was advertised in life tgt with brewerkz or smth. cuz i have alcoholic friends la. first champagne (which we didnt drink in the end) then beer haha.

they had nice fibreoptic lights heh.
our food!! spicy thai wings, seafood basket, linguine aglio olio. good food man haha.
these are my friends after pros faces!!
grinning tammy.
smug yuhui.
beaming bernice.
has a nice ring to it right haha.
and the 4 of us. waiter has shaky hands.
them. alcoholics unanonymous haha.
thats bernice with her beer and me with umm.. not my beer. haha.


haha then we were tired so we all just chionged home to sleep. but now that i'm home i dont wanna sleep alr ley.

gonna go back out later yay!! timbre then mambo mambo MAMBO!!
bernice's and tammy's virgin mambo experience haha.
its gonna be a BLAST.

we're celebrating with a BANG right. hahahhahaha. okay nvm inside joke.
to sleep! :D

i'm tireddd. tired tired TIREDDD.

haha in a better mood though. exercise always puts me in a a better mood. tdy was 3 hours of exhausting touch rugby under the sun. looked deceivingly cloudy in the morning but my red face now is testament to the heat haha.

nus vs src coyotes: 13 - 0 :D
pukekos mens vs ssv6: (some double digit no) - 2
pukekos mixed vs bedok kings: (another double digit no) - 1

YAY! yeah i played for the mens team too cuz they didnt have enough guys. got zammed by some guy's knee in the thigh though. contusion. RIGHT after some huge ang moh stepped on my foot. i just limped off the field la haha. and running and stepping in the muddy field is no joke. can feel resistance everytime you life your foot to run. so now my knees feel abit wobbly and my thigh hurts and i have a headache and i am sunburnt, BUT i am satisfied. so all's well heh.

dinner afterwards at sakae sushi with some wantoks. nice talking to them actually. or rather listening to them talk because firstly i don't talk much in big groups and secondly i was too tired to talk and thirdly my mouth was usually full hahaha. no clubbing at st james tonight because i am TOO TIRED. and i am cheapskate i only go when its free entry :)

yesterday was quite good too. work then baking again and blading to tammy's house. planned the itinerary of barcelona yay! then mj at jabriels house where i was extremely unlucky and stupid and lost all the money i made the other time haha. but at least i got to eat beef kway teow at geylang for the first time! good stuff i wanna go again heh.

random things:
i just got my new specs tdy!! haha they're grey not green as i told some of you before. haha my dad said i look very studious. i already looked studious before lor HAHA.
and this is one of the rare times i will put up a narcissistic pic on my blog like that. must show you my specs right haha. but sadly i do not have a specs face like a certain loo jing min haha.
super sian my degree is like 225 right and 25 left eye. my right eye degree nearly doubled since i entered med sch la. that place is bad for me i tell you. oh and sorry i look so fierce here hahah.

anw maybe tmr i shall put up some pics of the places i'll be visiting in barcelona! i'm excited abt the shopping there heh. although i probably wont have money to spend. :(

oh yeah escapes reading this next monday after everyones exams over we go forture and eat okay! then mj sleepover at someones house haha. maybe mine if i can get a table and set. addy's idea haha.

dear tammy just gave me smth else random to blog abt hahaha.

princess* says:
haha i liked it.
princess* says:
shioks
princess* says:
showed that he cares HAHA
kim. says:
ooohhh
kim. says:
much love ah
kim. says:
hahaha
princess* says:
haha we're lovebirds!

wonders who shes talking abt hahahahaha.